“Sometimes people in our situation just need to know we’re not alone,”said Matthew Fuller, a 26-year-old recovering from a serious Oxycontin addiction.
I was lucky enough to sit down and talk to Fuller and other recovering addicts after attending an AA meeting at the Alcohol & Drug Dependency Services on Elm Street in Buffalo. Although the meeting is technically for alcoholics, narcotic abusers attend as well. The same goes for alcoholics attending Narcotics Anonymous meetings.
“Addiction is addiction, we don’t discriminate or make light of other’s illnesses.”
Said Sarah Kobee. Sarah has been inpatient at the facility for a little over a month now.
“My parents saw my drinking as a problem and threatened to kick me out if I didn’t come here. I didn’t want to at first but I guess they know what’s best, and it is helping.” She added.
Alcoholics Anonymous has grown to over 2 million members worldwide since starting in 1935 in Akron, Ohio. Although there is no real way to track the sobriety of its members, the growth of the program speaks to its success.
“It’s day to day man, every day is a fight,” Fuller said. He has been sober for 37 days and counting. To many, that may not seem very long, but to him it’s an amazing accomplishment.
“God plays a big role in recovery.” Said Jim Manson, who started out the meeting with his own story of loss and hardship. He asked that I not put any of what was said in this paper, but did elaborate on “God Factor.”
“Couldn’t of done it without him, man. Like they say ‘If God is your co-pilot, then you need to switch seats with him, ’ya know?” Manson Said.
The Bible was constantly brought up throughout the meeting. Various speakers had favorite passages or just liked to thank God every chance that they could. It was extremely interesting to see the power that many of these people place in the hands of their respective faiths.
“The steps are important. Lots of people don’t take it seriously but jokes on them, man.” Said Manson. There was no real mention of the steps during the meeting. Some people made reference to them but nobody gave updates or shared about completing any of them. This leads me to believe that participants are on more of a personal journey, a part of the program that many like to do themselves.
Amidst the many stories of struggles and pain, the horrible coffee and the constant cigarette breaks, this meeting opened my eyes to the daily struggle that addicts face.
Drug and alcohol addiction is much easier to criticize when you’re looking at it from a safe distance, but only when you immerse yourself in it do you understand the men and women battling this disease.
“In the end, you can’t do it for anyone else. You gotta do it for you or you’ve already lost. That’s a lesson we all had to learn somehow.” Said Fuller.